Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts
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Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Tahoe Update

Hey Everyone, Happy Labor Day!! 

Well, it has been a few weeks since moving out to California. Today actually marks three weeks that I have lived in Tahoe City, CA. 
I figured that it was time for an update and to tell you guys some things that you could be in prayer for. 

The past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind trying to get settled into a new place and into a new ministry. The first week we had the kids was a transition time from summer into the school year. So, we did a week of summer activities which included hiking to Eagle Rock and going to the beach at the Lake throughout the week. The way that summer worked
 was essentially like a VBS. We had rec time, bible time, sang songs, and more. Now that school has started, we get kids early in the morning and then put them on the school buses. Then, we don't get kids again until around 12:45 and 2:45. We use that time to clean, make lesson plans, etc. Their after school day allows them to do homework, have a bible story, play outside. 

Meanwhile, there is the preschool! They have a full-day program for 3-5 year olds with circle time, centers, bible story, outside play, etc. So, wondering what more I do? I work in the preschool until 12:45 when I go downstairs and work with the older kids until closing. I help any of the teachers who need help keeping their ratio of teachers to students met. I have really enjoyed it, because it has allowed me to get to know most of the kids that come to the program. We also have Parent's Night Out (PNO) and My Morning Out (MMO) starting soon. I will tell more on those when they get here! :-) 

Now for some prayer requests! 

-- That me and the rest of the girls will continue to experience unity together as co-workers, missionaries, friends, and sisters in Christ. And that we will have the strength and endurance needed during the week.

-- That the children and parents involved in our ministry will continue to build relationships with us and see Christ as we love on their families.

-- FBC 
Tahoe City and it's members. The current pastor, Pastor Dan, or "PD" as we call him, will be retiring this fall. They already have a new pastor who they are very excited for, although they will greatly miss PD who has been here for a very long time! Pastor Scott and his wife Jennifer are coming in September and PD leaves in October. Pray for the church as they go through this hard transition and as they learn to love and trust Pastor Scott.

-- Pray for Tahoe and CA!! This is a big resort area, most of the people here do not live here full-time, but only vacation here. Pray that we will be able to show them the love of Christ while they are here. Pray also for CA. Around 80% of people in CA do not go to church anywhere.

-- Pray for Nell, Debbie, and Leana as they continue to run A+ and the Preschool. They are strong ladies, who have made an impact in this community and these families! 


That's it for now!
I hope tomorrow to do a post full of pictures, so be on the lookout! 
:-) 

"Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours." -- Mark 11:24

Monday, August 20, 2012

First Day Jitters

Tomorrow is the first day of work with kids!

We are meeting all of our kids tomorrow and get to start loving on them and their families. 
Showing them the love of Christ and developing relationships with them.

This place is beginning to change me in so many ways.
I'm excited to see how God continues to use it to minister to me; the place, the people, the community, the other girls. 

One of my favorite things to come out of serving the Lord, is to see and feel how He serves and ministers to me. 

Until later...

:-)

Saturday, August 11, 2012

My True Identity

Parts of this post have been taken from the book, "Made to Crave." 

One of the books I have been reading is "Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food" by Lysa TerKeurst.

I have not gotten very far into it, but so far it is very intriguing and has offered great advice and goals for living a healthy lifestyle. 
This is, after all, about glorifying God with my body and taking care of the temple in the way that He has instructed me. 

So far, Chapter 5 has been my favorite: Made for More.
Lysa says, "We were made for victory. Sometimes we just have to find our way to that truth." 
The life that we have is about so much more than just us, it is all about Him and what the Savior has done and how God wants to have us and use us for His glory.
We have to realize that we are worth it.
That He does want us!

Lysa talks about embracing our true identity in Christ. 
The way we see ourselves is not how Christ sees us. It is so important that we know how our Father sees us. 

I wanted to share these truths with you all. These are taken from chapter 5 in the book. 
Read and reflect over these. Let them resonate over you. 
Open your heart and let Christ show you who you are to Him. 

The forgiven child of God.
"...and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus"
Romans 3:24

The set-free child of God.
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death."
Romans 8:1-2 

The accepted child of God.
"To the church of God in Corinth, to those sanctified in Christ Jesus and called to be holy, together with all those everywhere who call on the name of our Lord Jesus Christ -- their Lord and ours..."
1 Corinthians 1:2

The holy child of God.
"It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God -- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption." 
1 Corinthians 1:30

The made-new child of God.
"Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!"
2 Corinthians 5:17

The loved child of God.
"For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love..."
Ephesians 1:4

The close child of God.
"But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far way have been brought near through the blood of Christ." 
Ephesians 2:13

The confident child of God.
"In him and through faith in him we may approach God with freedom and confidence." 
Ephesians 3:12

The victorious child of God.
"No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." 
Romans 8:37

A few more thoughts from Lysa: 
"The truth of my identity as a child of God empowers me to believe that living in victory tastes sweeter than any unhealthy delicacy." 

"The real reason for grounding ourselves in the truth that we are made for more is 'so that you may know Him better.' The more we operate in the truth of who we are and the reality that we were made for more, the closer to God we'll become." 

"Being ruled by anything other than God is something God takes quite seriously. And so should I." -- Chapter 6

Saturday, August 4, 2012

Heading To Tahoe City, California

In my last post (which I feel was forever ago), I announced that I was accepted as a semester missionary with the North American Mission Board (NAMB). I am very excited for this opportunity to travel and serve the Lord in Tahoe City, California. 

I will be serving at First Baptist Church Lake Tahoe as a preschool teacher in their Preschool for children ages 3-5. They also have a before and after school program for kindergartners through sixth grade children. The church also has various programs throughout the month for parents like My Morning Out and Parent's Night Out, where parents can drop off their kids for childcare and have time for themselves. The church is also involved in ski ministry, where they have church on the slopes, although this is only a spring semester ministry. 

Between both the Preschool and the School Program there will be about 90-100 children a day. Me along with the other semester missionaries will lead Bible stories, learning activities, crafts, educational centers, and games. Most the families who have children in the programs are not Christians. However, in the past these families have become more involved with FBC Lake Tahoe and some have come to have a relationship with Christ. 

The full-time population of Tahoe City is actually really small. While yearly they will have close to 9 million visitors. Tahoe City is the home of Lake Tahoe, the eighth deepest lake in the world. Most of the Lake resides in California, while the rest lies in Nevada. Lots of people come to Tahoe in the summer and winter for the Lake and the great skiing. 

Tahoe City is about 4 hours from San Francisco, 5 hours from Yosemite National Park, and an hour away from Reno, Nevada. 

I will be flying out to Tahoe on August 14th and returning home on December 22nd. 

I am so excited for this opportunity and to be in California. This is the farthest that I have lived and served from home so far, which makes it a little daunting. But, I am ready to be there, meet the people, and meet the kids. Not to mention to be in beautiful Tahoe City! Below is a picture of Lake Tahoe. 


I can't wait to share this journey with you guys!
I hope you will continue reading to learn more about the ministry and everyone involved. 

:-) 

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Fruit of the Spirit -- Joy

You can find the post for "Fruit of the Spirit -- Love", here

Today's post is on the fruit of the Spirit: joy. 
I found SO much on joy during my search on BibleGateway.com. This is a great website that has many resources. I definitely encourage you to check it out. This is where the majority of today's post comes from. 

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, 
kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness 
and 
self-control." 
Galatians 5:22


Joy = the emotion of great delight or happiness, keen pleasure, the expression or display of glad feelings, state of happiness. 

Strong's Dictionary = gladness, the joy received from you, the cause or occasion of joy, of person's who are one's joy. 

Joy in one form or another appears at least 59 times in the New Testament. 

Joy is a quality or attitude of delight and happiness, ultimately grounded in the work of God. Among the many situations in which joy is experienced, Scripture recognizes as supreme being accepted in the presence of God. 
There is joy of the Church, joy of the Holy Spirit, joy of God, and joy of Christ. 

  • Joy of the Church 
    • The church is to rejoice in the salvation brought by Christ's faithful life and death, and the power of His resurrection. Even in adversity, believers know the joy of Christ. 
    • There is joy at the coming of Christ.
    • Joy is the hallmark of the Kingdom of God. 
    • Christ promises joy.
    • There is joy among believers.
    • Joy experienced in relationship with Christ.
    • There is joy even in adversity.
    • Joy because of faith and obedience, love and concern.
    • Joy because of our partnership in the Gospel. 

  • Joy of the Holy Spirit 
    • The Spirit gives an inner contentment and happiness which is not dependent upon external circumstances. (This is one statement that really struck a cord with me. How often do I let the world determine my joy, instead of Christ?)
    • The Spirit enables the Messiah to bring joy. 
    • The Spirit gives joy:
      • To those who were anticipating the birth of Christ.
      • To Christ, Himself.
      • To disciples even in the face of opposition. 
    • Evidence of the Spirit's work prompts believers to rejoice!

  • Joy of God
    • God rejoices in the well-being and faithfulness of His people and in the repentance and conversion of sinners. He brings joy to His people, who rejoice in His presence and faithfulness.
    • God is the source of joy!
    • He rejoices in the restoration of His people. 
    • Joy is found in the heavenly presence of God.
    • Causes of God's joy:
      • His own works.
      • His chosen servants.
      • Christ, His Son.
      • The restored temple.
      • His people and their worship. (How is our worship bringing joy to God? Is it at all?)
      • Repentance
      • Obedience, honesty, and integrity.

  • Joy of Christ
    • Originates in God:
      • From His intimate relationship with His Father and the Spirit.
      • From His awareness of God's purposes.
    • To know Christ brings great joy to others!

Some other examples of joy can be found in Philippians and 1 Thessalonians. 

"But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice." 
Philippians 1:18-19


"You became imitators of us and of the Lord; in spite of severe suffering, you welcomed the message with the joy given by the Holy Spirit." 
1 Thessalonians 1:6


"Joy is different from happiness, because happiness depends on what happens. There are elements in our circumstances we cannot help; joy is independent of them all." 
Oswald Chambers, He Shall Glorify Me


Although these are only two verses of Scripture that speak on joy, there are many verses that go along with all of this post. I encourage you to go to BibleGateway.com and look up joy. 


(Today's post was gathered from Dictionary.com, BibleGateway.com, and BlueLetterBible.org) 

Monday, July 9, 2012

Fruit of the Spirit -- Love

I have decided to go through and study the fruits of the Spirit as listed in Galatians. I hope to do one fruit a day until I have gone through them all. Most of what I write in these posts I have gathered from various online resources.

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, 
kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness 
and 
self-control." 
Galatians 5:22 

Love = a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person, feeling of warm personal attachment. 

Strong's Dictionary = agape, affection, good will, love, benevolence, brotherly love, love feasts

This agape form of love occurs around 116 times in the New Testament. 

Love is a caring commitment, affection and delight shown to one another, which is grounded in God Himself. In His words and actions and Christ's death on the Cross, God demonstrates the nature of love and defines the direction in which human love, in all forms, should develop. 

  • Reasons for loving one another:
    • God commands it.
    • God has taken the initiative in showing love.
    • God's people are known by their love.
    • Love maintains fellowship.
    • Love promotes sacrificial service.
  • Expressing love for one another occurs:
    • In caring for the sick.
    • In meeting material needs.
    • In affectionate greetings. 
"O Lord, I would crave more and more to put on love like a garment, that in my contact with men that is what they will most lastingly recognize." 
-- Oswald Chambers, Knocking at God's Door




(Today's post was gathered from Dictionary.com, BibleGateway.com, and BlueLetterBible.org)




Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing

Two years ago I was doing an internship in Mobile, Alabama.
Last summer, I was a summer missionary with NAMB in New Orleans, Louisiana. 

This summer?

Resting, relaxing, and spending time with friends. 
Oh, and there is work. 

This summer I am graduated, done with classes, and not out in the mission field. 
(Well, besides Tuscaloosa being my summer mission field, I mean me not out in another state or city.) 
The only things I have done have been spending time with friends, going to the lake, sleeping, reading, watching Netflix, sleeping, working out (another post for another time), and working 3 hours a day at my part-time job. 

Seeing as I'm a big advocate for using my summers for the Lord, it is weird not being anywhere doing that. 
However, I really feel like this moratorium is going to be good for me. 
When graduation first ended, I really didn't know what I was going to do with myself. I hadn't planned on going anywhere and I didn't feel the Lord calling me to go anywhere. I just took it a day at a time. 
Then, a few days after graduation, I just became tired. All of a sudden it seemed like the past five years caught up with me and I just became overwhelmed with this feeling of tiredness, both physically and spiritually. 

A lot has happened to me during my five years in college. 
New friends. Classes. Tests and Finals. Mission Trips. New Church. Bible Study. Work. No Work. Changing Majors. Summer Internships. Weddings. Birthdays. Car Wreck. Fights. Lost Friendships. Restored Friendships. Late Nights. Tornado. Summer Missionary Job. Road Trips. 
More School. More Work. 
Graduation. 

So when friends and family asked me what I was going to do now that I was graduated and I answered with "sleep", I really was not kidding. 
The weight of five years was lifted and I just collapsed. 

I loved college. Absolutely LOVED it. These past five years were definitely the best years I have had so far and contain memories that I will always remember and treasure! 

I want this summer to be a continuation of that and I want to keep adding to that memory box, but I also want this summer to be about the Lord restoring me. I want to rest in the Lord and seek Him daily as He leads me on the next step in my journey. I learned so much in college and now I want to reflect on the things I learned and apply them more than ever. Now is the time that I need this wisdom the most! Life is going to change so very drastically in the "real" world and coming years. 

It's both thrilling and scary at the same time. For as much as I want to know the future and what is going to happen, I know there is no way for me to know. All I can do is wait and trust in the Lord as He reveals His plan to me. As hard as it is some days, I am more than willing to just wait right now. 

There are days when I terribly miss NOLA and Mobile and the people and kids that I met in those places, but I very thankful for the time that I had with them and the things that the Lord showed and taught me there.  Those places ministered and blessed me in more ways than I could have ever done for them. 
I am very thankful to the Lord for that. That He saw it as good to have me there. 

I am also thankful for this "free" time that I have. Knowing that the Lord has planned to keep me here in Tuscaloosa this summer is exciting in its own way. I am thankful for the next two months that I get to be with my church family here, because I know that I am not done learning from them.  I feel the Lord has something good planned. I feel He knows that I need these next two months to prepare for the months that come after. 

Because starting August, the "free" time is over. 
A new journey is starting. 
A journey that definitely takes me far from Alabama, farther than I have been before.
(Still in the United States though.) 
Stay tuned, because I'm excited to see what the Lord is going to do
and I can't wait to share with you guys. 

:-) 





Saturday, March 31, 2012

It's a Life Change, Worship to the Lord



If there is one thing you haven't learned from reading my blog and seeing pictures that I have taken, I love trees.  My all time favorite scene to capture is the sun shining through trees like the one above. Not to mention two of my favorite Bible verses speak of trees, vines and branches. 


This is a passage found in John chapter 15, verses 1-8:
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples."

Another of my favorites speaks about the Cross and how we are healed by Christ's wounds in 1 Peter chapter 2, verse 24: 
"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed."

I took the picture above at Camp Sumatanga in Alabama earlier this year when my college ministry went on our Winter Road Trip. This was the last chance I would have to go on a roadtrip with my college ministry. Of course it was bittersweet, but it was also a wonderful time! I hate that I didn't take more pictures, but I was too busy soaking up the Word and enjoying fellowship with my brother and sisters. 
We focused on the Gospel and how it impacts us as individuals and how it impacts the church, both body and building. 


One part of the teaching that sticks out to me is focused around Romans 12:1-8:
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will. For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully."

Here are some notes that I took from that session:
  • The Gospel changes how we use our bodies, simply because Christ is our treasure. 
  • Every "do not" in the Word is drenched in love. We are to not conform, but to be transformed. 
  • The Gospel changes how we use our minds and how we think.
  • The Gospel changes how we think of ourselves. 
  • The Gospel changes how we view the local church and our assigned roles.
The bullet point in bold is the one that had the most impact on me and something that the Lord has really placed on my heart to truly think about and take to heart. I'm not saying that I have had a negative self-image, but I mean let's face it, I am a girl. What girl, or guy for that matter, has never thought about something that they would change about themselves? It hasn't been until recently that I have begun to see what it means to belong to the Lord as His daughter, to view my body "as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God." 
I have always had that "resolution" to lose weight, eat healthier, and fit into a smaller pair of jeans. As we all know, resolutions rarely ever last. Then, my view of losing weight turned to: getting healthier. It isn't about looking better, gaining attention from guys or competing against other women to "look good." It is about "true and proper worship." My body is not my own, but God's. I was created in His image to do His work. This is about being transformed by renewing my mind to the things of Christ. I want to be the daughter and servant that He has called me to be. 
The discipline is hard, physically and spiritually, but in the end the harvest is righteousness and peace. 

"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 'Make level paths for your feet,' so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed."

Hebrews 12:11-13

So, here I am on this new journey. 
One that will be hard, but I know will be worth it in the end. 
A transformation and renewing of my mind, of how I think about myself. 
A journey to discover the way that the Lord sees me. 

Beautiful, holy and pleasing to Him. 


Monday, January 2, 2012

Learning to Trust

I was reading in the first couple of chapters of Luke the other day, which talk about Elizabeth and Mary both being told that they would become with child.
First, the angel Gabriel appeared to Zechariah, telling him that his wife would be pregnant with John the Baptist. Then, the same angel appeared to Mary and Joseph, telling them that they would be pregnant with the Savior of the world, Jesus. 
While Mary was pregnant, she went to visit Elizabeth for about three months. She stayed with her and then returned to her home. Shortly after, Elizabeth gave birth. 

I thought about how the Lord allowed Elizabeth and Mary to be pregnant around the same time. Although they were months apart, they were experiencing the same thing in that period of their life. He allowed them to be friends and be near each other to be encouragement for one another. 

I think it is the same way in our lives sometimes. We may be going through this season in our life, where sometimes we can feel all alone. Then, God in His infinite love and wisdom for us, sends us someone that can be an encouragement to us. He sends us someone who may be in that same season of their life, that can give us advice and encouragement, listen to us talk, and be there when we shed some tears. 

I am so thankful for my best friend. We have only known each other for a little over 2 years, this August will be 3 years. But, together we have already been through so much together. I am so blessed to have her in my life and thankful for the encouragement that she gives me. Sadly, we no longer live near each other, but thanks to Skype, we are able to still see each other's faces. 

Last night was one of those nights where I needed some encouragement, advice, someone just to sit there as I cried. I love how she can tell when something is wrong, even when I say that it is all okay. 
She knows me too well. 

Truth is, in 5 months I will be graduating college and I have no idea where I am going right now. 
Absolutely no idea. 
And I have not been trusting God with it all.

It is hard to give everything to Him, because we are human and want so much to have some control of our lives. But, if I claim to put my faith in Him, to allow Him to be my Savior, I have to give it all. 

He already knows what the future holds. 
That should be enough. 

I have to trust Him. 

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

The 8-Month Anniversary

This is just a re-post of a post that I created shortly after the April 27th, Tuscaloosa Tornado. Yesterday, the 27th, marked the 8 month anniversary of the Tornado. I don't intend to upset anyone or bring up bad memories. This day is one that I both want to forget and never forget, because it gives me a picture of God's grace. This is only my account of that day. Although I didn't lose anything, my home for the past 5 years was torn apart. My thoughts and prayers are with those families who are still rebuilding and putting together pieces of their lives. My thoughts and prayers are also with those families who are without dearly loved and missed members of their families this holiday season: fathers and mothers, sons and daughters, brothers and sisters. 


About 8 months after the first hard, scary, traumatic experience. 
I had another experience that was the same, but different. 

It was different because it wasn't a car accident, but a natural disaster. 

Hard, scary, traumatic. 

April 27th was a beautiful day. 
Besides the fact that I had to spend the gorgeous, blue-skied day sitting in class after class, it was a good day. 
We all knew the potential for bad weather later on in the day, but if it was going to be like the past few days, that was going to blow over with nothing really to talk about. 

Sitting in one of my classes, I told one of my friends that she could come to my dorm if she wanted to and we could ride out the tornado together with my roommates. 
I told her to come whenever, but that I still had one more class that afternoon unless it got cancelled.
Like usual, it didn't, so I was preparing to go to class. 

Ten minutes before my class, I was sitting in my dorm living room with one of my roommates and my friend that came over.
We were watching James Spann on the news as he was covering a storm that was heading toward Cullman, Al. 
The town that one of my roommates is from. 
I decided to be a few minutes late to class, because I wanted to stay with her, make sure she was okay and to watch the storm to see what happened. 
The three of us were watching the TV, not really expecting anything, until we saw it.
A funnel cloud form and eventually touch down in Cullman County. 
We watched as it quickly formed and then as it started making its way through the town. 
I remember seeing a radio tower fall as the tornado passed over it. 

My roommate called her parents to make sure that they were okay.
When I heard that they were, I decided to go ahead and go to class. 
I was going to be ten minutes late, but it was the last week before finals, so I figured that I needed to go. 

I didn't take a rain jacket because it had not started raining yet and was still pretty blue outside. 
I walked to class through the wind and got into my class and saw that they were watching a movie.
I immediately regretted my choice of coming to class.
I sat down and literally about 10 minutes later, a girl speaks up and says that a tornado warning has been issued for the southern part of our county. 

After deciding that we should go downstairs, our teacher makes us all file down into a small first floor area. 
The warning did not include our University yet, so we then found out it was okay to go back upstairs. 
Well, being the college students that we are, we all were debating what to do.
Stay and review for the final or just forget about it and go home. 

I decided to bail and go back to my dorm. 
Going to that class for literally 5-10 minutes was so not worth it. 
So, I along with the majority of my class, start walking to our different directions. 
As I'm walking back to my dorm, I noticed that the wind had picked up and there were some sprinkles. 

As soon as I got to the steps and porch of my dorm, the tornado siren goes off. 

The rules are that if you hear the siren, you have to come downstairs. 
As I was walking in the building, I texted my friends upstairs and told them to come down. 
The siren then went off and the RA downstairs said for us to not worry about it, but that if we heard another one we should make our way to the first floor. 

I get upstairs, put my book bag down, go to the bathroom and come back into the living room 
as another siren comes on. 
By this time, I'm just like really! 
Make up your freakin' mind! 
I did not want to go downstairs and sit in a hallway with tons of other girls for 3 hours. 
We had to do that a week before and it was not a pleasant experience.
Apparently, when you are in a hallway with everyone else, this is when you are supposed to start being annoying and inconsiderate.
Right, perfect timing guys...or should I say girls. 

Anyways, we make our way to the first floor and find our spot in the corner that we had grown very fond of. 
We make friends with some other girls that we had never met and start talking. 

Well, then the phones start ringing, texts come in and talking increases throughout the hallway. 
We get messages from people asking if we are okay and others telling us there is a bad storm on the way. 

We get online to see what is going on and find James Spann once again.
He is our great weather man! I am really glad that we have him doing weather for the area. He has helped and informed so many people! Props and kudos to him! 

We are watching the live feed with about 9,000 other people watching online as well. 
They finally flash to a picture of the tornado heading into Tuscaloosa. 
I see my two friends who are watching it gasp and put their hands over their mouths.
I was thinking, "I've got to see this." 
So, I leaned over the hallway and peered over her computer screen to see the monster that is coming toward us. 

This is what we see. 




And the last thing that we hear?
That it is heading straight for the University of Alabama.

We all look at each other and pretty much just say that this is going to be a bumpy ride. 
But as we turn to face the wall and get into tornado position, that one that we learned back in kindergarten, 
we were all praying that God would keep us safe. 

The lights flickered and then everything went black. 
There was just the light of cell phones and the chattering of scared students. 

We heard loud rushes of wind that we know now was the tornado. 
It came a little over a mile away from my dorm. 

When we were able to get outside, we saw that there was one tree down and thought that maybe the rest of our town had been spared as well. 
The power was out and phone lines down. We couldn't get in touch with anyone or find out any information.

We heard initial reports that the hospital was gone and that other parts of 15th Street were gone. 
The hospital turned out to be fine except for some busted windows. 
15th Street however, was very hard hit. 

We debated about whether to go to a friends house that was over the River. 
They had no damage and still had power. 
Or if we should stay at the dorm. We stayed at the dorm that night, downstairs in the common living room.
We ate Peanut Butter and talked and listened to different stories that we heard, not really knowing all the truth yet.

The next morning, we got up and packed some bags and went to my friend's house. 
We sat down in her living room and my other friend that was there asked if we had seen or heard anything. 

It had been 12 hours since the tornado. 
For 12 hours we had been without power, little phone service, and no news. 

When we first saw the videos and the pictures, we thought it was unreal.
There was no way that our town had just gotten taken out by a tornado. 

But, it had. 

For the next several hours, as much as we didn't want to continue watching the videos, news, or look at the pictures, we continued to. 
We couldn't take our eyes off of it. 
It was all so surreal. 

Time seemed to slow. 
That first week after the tornado felt like a month.
Classes had been suspended for the rest of the semester. We had the option to take our finals or take the grade we had in the class. 

Graduation for those in May wasn't held. 

For 6 students at the University of Alabama, tomorrow never came. 

41 people in Tuscaloosa lost their lives and more than 200 in the state were killed. 
Thousands lost homes.
Many were missing. 
Shelters were set up, search and rescue teams were sent out.
The state was declared to be in a state of disaster and emergency. 

Although I didn't personally lose anything that day in the tornado. 
It was still my town.
For the past 4 years I have called that place home and now it was destroyed. 

For a couple of days I couldn't do anything, but watch the news and videos. 
And when that got tiring, a funny, Disney movie. 

It was hard, scary, and traumatizing. 

I finally got up, praised God that I was okay and that everyone I knew was okay.
Talked to my parents and many others who called to check on me.
And went out to lend a helping hand to those that had lost everything. 

I went to Alberta City. I picked up shingles, dug through rubble, carried off limbs. 
I helped separate what was to keep or throw away. I went to Hargrove.
I saw 15th Street. 
I served food at the Belk Center. I cooked food.
I went out with the American Red Cross to serve hot food to people in areas that hadn't been reached yet. 

I did the only thing I knew to do. 
I served the people around me. I responded when called. 
All of a sudden, the area of need wasn't a plane ride away. 
I could walk to it. 

My mission field was a disaster.
It was where God called me. 
Even though it was hard, scary, and traumatizing. 

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Journey of Singleness -- Free From Anxieties, Secure in the Lord

I know that I am not the only on this journey of singleness. 
I have been here for quite some time and may continue to be on this road for quite awhile longer.

Maybe forever. 

But, I know the desires of my heart and I know that my Father knows the desires of my heart. 
There is a reason for this season. 
One of them is for me to grow closer to Him, to keep searching, and to keep looking at the face of Christ. 

My relationship with Him is the most important! 

Upon this foundation everything else will be built, so it is there that I must start. 

My Love awaits. 

:-) 

"I want you to be free from anxieties. 
The unmarried man is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to please the Lord. 
But the married man is anxious about worldly things, how to please his wife, and his interests are divided. 
And the unmarried or betrothed woman is anxious about the things of the Lord, how to be holy in body and spirit. 
But the married woman is anxious about worldly things, how to please her husband. 
I say this for your own benefit, not to lay any restraint upon you, but to promote good order and to secure your undivided devotion to the Lord." 

1 Corinthians 7: 32-35

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Lord, Please Saturate Me

In all honesty, my quiet time and reading of the Word hasn't been what it should be. 
Especially lately. 

Camp has been consuming me and all of my energy for the past 6 weeks, but there are really no excuses. 

Even when I feel that I have nothing left. When there is no energy to even lift a finger. When my eyes cannot stay open any longer. 

My time in the Word and with my Lord is the most important thing. 

I refuse to let my quiet time be another thing to mark off a "to-do" list. 
I want it to be more than just reading a Psalm or a Proverb or a random chapter that I flipped up to.

Don't get me wrong, I love the Psalms and the Proverbs, but it has not been feeding me in the right way. 
Mostly because I have not put any effort into it at all. 
I read and that was that. 

I wasn't opening myself up to what God may have wanted me to hear. I wasn't allowing Him to saturate me with His promises and His words. 

No more. 

This morning was my start fresh on reading the Word in the morning and meditating on it. 
I read 2 John, where verse 6 really stuck out to me. 

"And this is love: that we walk in obedience to His commands. As you have heard from the beginning, His command is that You walk in love." 

Before I left to go walk to work this morning, I wrote on my foot, "Walk in love..."
I wanted to have this constant reminder of what the Lord showed me this morning. 
To be honest, the past couple days of camp have been some tough ones. 
We are in the middle of the summer and the kids are doing things they think they can get away with and it is hard.
I don't like to yell, I don't like to punish or sit them in time out, I don't like to take away craft time or swim time. But, these past couple of days, I have had to do it all. 

And today was another one of those days, especially this morning. 
It seemed like everything had just hit the fan. 
And of course, I should have seen it coming. I had started my day off with the Lord, surely I should have seen the devil coming from somewhere. 

When we broke off into our groups before Hero High Five, where we say our verse and do our cheers, I had the Suns. Now, in the morning for about 30 minutes or so, I am usually by myself with the Suns because my co-leader is not there yet. Thankfully, today (and all this week) there was a friend of the director in town and she stayed with the Suns and during craft time. 
Well, this morning, I was trying to get the kids ready to say the verse and they kept saying they weren't going to say it and when we would start they would say different parts or talk to one another or talk about something different or talk in different voices. Basically being 4 and 5 year olds and not listening. 
They did this over and over again. 

Then, during Hero High Five when we were all together, they would not be quiet and listen to the director or to their friends as they did their thing. 
It came time for us to do our verse and I was the only one who said it. They didn't participate and they were spinning in circles or crawling on the floor. 
Then, got mad because we didn't let them do their cheer. 

Basically is was not the Sun group that I was used to. 
They were nothing like the group I mentioned here.

As I was dealing with them, I was just telling myself over and over, "Walk in love...walk in love...walk in love." 
Towards the afternoon, the Suns and all the groups got very better. 
They were wonderful. There were still things that happened and people got into trouble, but for the most part they were good.
I played on the playground with them, ran around with them, was able to catch a few smiles and give a few hugs. 

I was able to walk in love. 

I'm so glad that the Lord led me to that passage in 2 John this morning. 
It was a beautiful reminder of what I need to be doing daily with these kids. 

So, I pray, 
Lord, that You would saturate me. 
Cover me with Your Word.
Your Word is alive and living.
Your Word is truth.
Your Words are real. 

For some ways to develop your quiet time, check this post out.



Sunday, June 26, 2011

When I Feel Small

There is a moment in my life when I feel truly small. 
It happens a lot 
and 
isn't a bad thing. 

I actually really like it. 
It is humbling. 

Whenever I pray to my Father God, I get this feeling that I am super small. 
Like I'm in a big, bright, white room with huge ceilings.
And there I am, along a wall or in a corner, surrounded by hugeness. 

With a feeling of being small.

I can feel God's power and how mighty He is.
I feel the sense of being surrounded by Him. 
I know that He is here with me! 

I got that feeling tonight as I was praying with fellow staff members. 
I was asked to open us up in prayer 
and 
I gladly did. 

I tend to not pray out loud unless asked 
or 
if I really feel the Holy Spirit leading me. 

Sometimes I wish that I was the first to volunteer, but being who I am, 
I hesitate and let someone else do it. 
Because the devil tells me that prayer isn't good enough 
or 
that I am going to sound stupid
and
stumble over words
or
that I'm not going to make sense.

Well, you know what?

God hears my prayers. 
He understands them. 
He knows my heart.
He knows how to answer prayers. 

Tonight however, I prayed to my Father as I joined hands with not just staff members, but sisters in Christ. 

I once heard one of my youth pastors or someone say that if we pass up the opportunity to speak out loud when we feel led, when we feel God telling us to speak, that we may not be letting God use us as He could. He might want us to speak or say something that He wants someone else to hear, but if we are silent, they won't hear it. 

It is the same with the Gospel. 
We can live it out all day and say that we believe it, but
if we don't actually speak the Gospel 
then how will people hear it? 
How will they come to know?

I pray that my boldness of the Gospel will just spill out.
That everything I do or say
and 
everywhere I go 
will just be a picture of the Gospel. 

There is nothing else that I should live for as a believer in Christ. 

I pray that I will speak out when I feel the Holy Spirit leading me.
That I will not be hindrance to the Gospel of Christ. 
That I will be vulnerable 
and 
allow God to use me as He wishes. 

I pray, Father, that You will use me as You see fit. 
Surround me with Your mightiness. 
Help me to feel small. 




Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Like a Child

This past week, I feel like God has been wanting me to pay attention to the mind of a child. 
They are so creative, funny, unafraid of some things and afraid of others, imaginative, 
passionate, temperamental, demanding and loving. 
They are untouched by the world in so many ways, but some have seen things far beyond their years.
I constantly want to keep them the innocent 4 and 5 year olds that they are, but I know that eventually
 (and that may come sooner than I wish)
they will no longer just see what is on the playground.

They will grow up and learn all the things that are going on in this world.
They will know what I know and maybe even more.
They will see that the world is filled with evil, lurking all around them. 
Trying it's best to get a hold of them.
Trying to tear them away from the innocence that they know now.

They will see the death, the violence, the racism and discrimination, the sex, drugs, alcohol, and money.

They will see everything that I don't want them to see.

I love how at this age they are unconcerned with the color of people's skin.
To them, they are all the same.

I want so badly to shelter them from the evil that is out to steal, kill, and destroy.

I know that, for right now, I am only here for a summer.
I will only be with them for 8 more weeks.

What happens after?
Only the Lord knows.

I pray earnestly that He will protect them in all their many situations.
I am confident that He will.

I pray that all of them will come to know the Lord and have a saving, personal relationship with Him.

I pray that the seeds planted in their young lives this summer will continue to be tended to
and that one day, they will say yes to the Savior and let Him be their King.

I know that work done for the Lord is never in vain
and that His Word is faithful and true.

I know that He saves lives
and
changes hearts.

I know that He loves the little children.
That He loves all of us.
That He wants a relationship with all of us, even though some choose to say no.

My Jesus saves.

I know that these children are no different.
And I am praying for them, that one day,
 they will say yes to Lord
that is calling them to do great things.

I pray that we can be like little children.
That we can look beyond the differences of our skin, language, or culture
and just see the person in front of us.
I pray that we will not pass anyone by because of the way they are or how they look,
but instead that we will see through the lens of Christ.
We will see their heart
and tell them about Jesus.
I pray that we continuously plant and nourish seeds.
I pray that we never lose faith that our God can do great and mighty things.
I pray that we remember that He is still changing lives
and
that He won't relent.

"At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, 'Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?' He called a little child and had him stand among them. And He said, 'I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. And whoever welcomes a little child like this is my name welcomes me. But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea." 
-- Matthew 18:1-6



Friday, June 10, 2011

Learning from Acts -- Part 7

This is Part 7 in the Learning from Acts Series, for Part 1, click here.

Peter's Imprisonment, the Power of Prayer and Herod's Death

  • In chapter 12 of Acts, Herod imprisoned Peter after he had executed James, Jesus' disciple not brother. He saw how the people were happy that James was killed, so he intended to do the same to Peter.
    • "He had James, the brother of John, put to death with the sword. When he saw that this pleased the Jews, he proceeded to seize Peter also...After arresting him, he put him in prison, handing him over to be guarded by four squads of four soldiers each." --vs. 12:2-3,4
  • The Church learned of Peter being in jail and prayed for him continously.
    • "So Peter was kept in prison, but the church was earnestly praying to God for him." -- vs. 12:5
    • "...where many people had gathered and were praying." -- vs. 12:12
  • The night before his trial, an angel of the Lord came and rescued him.
    • "Suddenly an angel of the Lord appeared and a light shone in the cell...Peter followed him out of the prison, but he had no idea that what the angel was doing was really happening; he thought he was seeing a vision...Then Peter came to himself and said, 'Now I know without a doubt that the Lord sent His angel and rescued me from Herod's clutches and from everything the Jewish poeple were anticipating.'" -- vs. 12:7,9.11
  • The power of prayer is evident in this passage. Although God knew all along how Peter's story was going to unfold, He no doubt heard the earnest prayers of His Church. They had gathered together for Peter, most likely praying for his safety and his release.
  • Peter told them of the release and then went on to another place.
    • "Peter motioned with his hand for them to be quiet and described how the Lord had brought him out of prison. 'Tell James and the brothers about this,' he said, and then he left for another place." -- vs. 12:17
  • Herod then saw that Peter was no longer in the prison and he sentenced the guards to death.
    • "After Herod had a thorough search made for him and did not find him, he cross-examined the guards and ordered that they be executed." -- vs. 12:19
  • While Herod was giving an address to the people, they said he was like a god, not a man, showing their loyalty and that they approved of him.
    • "They shouted, 'This is the voice of a god, not of a man.'" -- vs. 12:22
  • Herod was pleased, but he did not give praise to God and was immediately struck down.
    • "Immediately, because Herod did not give praise to God, an angel of the Lord struck him down, and he was eaten by worms and died." -- vs. 12:23
  • Where does our allegiance lie? Who do we give our praise to? Our heavenly Father who has blessed us with where we are, what we have, or what we have accomplised? Or with the worms, those who aren't God, the things or people that we fall victim to and look to for affirmation and worth?
  • The Word of the Lord was still preached, it increased.
    • "But the word of God continued to increase and spread." -- vs. 12:24

I pray, Heavenly Father, that our allegiance would be to You. That we would turn to You to find satisfaction and affirmation. That we wouldn't look to the things of the world, but instead toss them in the ocean. I pray that we would recognize the things that steal our thoughts from You and learn to ignore them. We know that You remain true through the ages, enduring forever and that the things of this world won't always be here.I pray that we cling to the Truth that You are and neve underestimate Your power.  

Sunday, May 22, 2011

The Past 8 Months -- Part 2

 

About 8 months after the first hard, scary, traumatic experience. 
I had another experience that was the same, but different. 

It was different because it wasn't a car accident, but a natural disaster. 

Hard, scary, traumatic. 

April 27th was a beautiful day. 
Besides the fact that I had to spend the gorgeous, blue-skied day sitting in class after class, it was a good day. 
We all knew the potential for bad weather later on in the day, but if it was going to be like the past few days, that was going to blow over with nothing really to talk about. 

Sitting in one of my classes, I told one of my friends that she could come to my dorm if she wanted to and we could ride out the tornado together with my roommates. 
I told her to come whenever, but that I still had one more class that afternoon unless it got cancelled.
Like usual, it didn't, so I was preparing to go to class. 

Ten minutes before my class, I was sitting in my dorm living room with one of my roommates and my friend that came over.
We were watching James Spann on the news as he was covering a storm that was heading toward Cullman, Al. 
The town that one of my roommates is from. 
I decided to be a few minutes late to class, because I wanted to stay with her, make sure she was okay and to watch the storm to see what happened. 
The three of us were watching the TV, not really expecting anything, until we saw it.
A funnel cloud form and eventually touch down in Cullman County. 
We watched as it quickly formed and then as it started making its way through the town. 
I remember seeing a radio tower fall as the tornado passed over it. 

My roommate called her parents to make sure that they were okay.
When I heard that they were, I decided to go ahead and go to class. 
I was going to be ten minutes late, but it was the last week before finals, so I figured that I needed to go. 

I didn't take a rain jacket because it had not started raining yet and was still pretty blue outside. 
I walked to class through the wind and got into my class and saw that they were watching a movie.
I immediately regretted my choice of coming to class.
I sat down and literally about 10 minutes later, a girl speaks up and says that a tornado warning has been issued for the southern part of our county. 

After deciding that we should go downstairs, our teacher makes us all file down into a small first floor area. 
The warning did not include our University yet, so we then found out it was okay to go back upstairs. 
Well, being the college students that we are, we all were debating what to do.
Stay and review for the final or just forget about it and go home. 

I decided to bail and go back to my dorm. 
Going to that class for literally 5-10 minutes was so not worth it. 
So, I along with the majority of my class, start walking to our different directions. 
As I'm walking back to my dorm, I noticed that the wind had picked up and there were some sprinkles. 

As soon as I got to the steps and porch of my dorm, the tornado siren goes off. 

The rules are that if you hear the siren, you have to come downstairs. 
As I was walking in the building, I texted my friends upstairs and told them to come down. 
The siren then went off and the RA downstairs said for us to not worry about it, but that if we heard another one we should make our way to the first floor. 

I get upstairs, put my book bag down, go to the bathroom and come back into the living room 
as another siren comes on. 
By this time, I'm just like really! 
Make up your freakin' mind! 
I did not want to go downstairs and sit in a hallway with tons of other girls for 3 hours. 
We had to do that a week before and it was not a pleasant experience.
Apparently, when you are in a hallway with everyone else, this is when you are supposed to start being annoying and inconsiderate.
Right, perfect timing guys...or should I say girls. 

Anyways, we make our way to the first floor and find our spot in the corner that we had grown very fond of. 
We make friends with some other girls that we had never met and start talking. 

Well, then the phones start ringing, texts come in and talking increases throughout the hallway. 
We get messages from people asking if we are okay and others telling us there is a bad storm on the way. 

We get online to see what is going on and find James Spann once again.
He is our great weather man! I am really glad that we have him doing weather for the area. He has helped and informed so many people! Props and kudos to him! 

We are watching the live feed with about 9,000 other people watching online as well. 
They finally flash to a picture of the tornado heading into Tuscaloosa. 
I see my two friends who are watching it gasp and put their hands over their mouths.
I was thinking, "I've got to see this." 
So, I leaned over the hallway and peered over her computer screen to see the monster that is coming toward us. 

This is what we see. 


And the last thing that we hear?
That it is heading straight for the University of Alabama.

We all look at each other and pretty much just say that this is going to be a bumpy ride. 
But as we turn to face the wall and get into tornado position, that one that we learned back in kindergarten, 
we were all praying that God would keep us safe. 

The lights flickered and then everything went black. 
There was just the light of cell phones and the chattering of scared students. 

We heard loud rushes of wind that we know now was the tornado. 
It came a little over a mile away from my dorm. 

When we were able to get outside, we saw that there was one tree down and thought that maybe the rest of our town had been spared as well. 
The power was out and phone lines down. We couldn't get in touch with anyone or find out any information.

We heard initial reports that the hospital was gone and that other parts of 15th Street were gone. 
The hospital turned out to be fine except for some busted windows. 
15th Street however, was very hard hit. 

We debated about whether to go to a friends house that was over the River. 
They had no damage and still had power. 
Or if we should stay at the dorm. We stayed at the dorm that night, downstairs in the common living room.
We ate Peanut Butter and talked and listened to different stories that we heard, not really knowing all the truth yet.

The next morning, we got up and packed some bags and went to my friend's house. 
We sat down in her living room and my other friend that was there asked if we had seen or heard anything. 

It had been 12 hours since the tornado. 
For 12 hours we had been without power, little phone service, and no news. 

When we first saw the videos and the pictures, we thought it was unreal.
There was no way that our town had just gotten taken out by a tornado. 

But, it had. 

For the next several hours, as much as we didn't want to continue watching the videos, news, or look at the pictures, we continued to. 
We couldn't take our eyes off of it. 
It was all so surreal. 

Time seemed to slow. 
That first week after the tornado felt like a month.
Classes had been suspended for the rest of the semester. We had the option to take our finals or take the grade we had in the class. 

Graduation for those in May wasn't held. 

For 6 students at the University of Alabama, tomorrow never came. 

41 people in Tuscaloosa lost their lives and more than 200 in the state were killed. 
Thousands lost homes.
Many were missing. 
Shelters were set up, search and rescue teams were sent out.
The state was declared to be in a state of disaster and emergency. 

Although I didn't personally lose anything that day in the tornado. 
It was still my town.
For the past 4 years I have called that place home and now it was destroyed. 

For a couple of days I couldn't do anything, but watch the news and videos. 
And when that got tiring, a funny, Disney movie. 

It was hard, scary, and traumatizing. 

I finally got up, praised God that I was okay and that everyone I knew was okay.
Talked to my parents and many others who called to check on me.
And went out to lend a helping hand to those that had lost everything. 

I went to Alberta City. I picked up shingles, dug through rubble, carried off limbs. 
I helped separate what was to keep or throw away. I went to Hargrove.
I saw 15th Street. 
I served food at the Belk Center. I cooked food.
I went out with the American Red Cross to serve hot food to people in areas that hadn't been reached yet. 

I did the only thing I knew to do. 
I served the people around me. I responded when called. 
All of a sudden, the area of need wasn't a plane ride away. 
I could walk to it. 

My mission field was a disaster.
It was where God called me. 
Even though it was hard, scary, and traumatizing.