There Is A World

There is a world that
I may never be a part of.
But, if You aren't there,
I don't want any part of it.

To long for something so much,
But knowing that
I should long for You more.
To long for You,
More than that world.

A world that
I may never be a part of.
A place where I seem like such a
stranger.

A place so foreign to me,
That I can't even understand.
I can't communicate.
I can't see.
I can't comprehend,
This world that I
May never be a part of.

But if You aren't there,
That place isn't for me.
I don't have to understand,
I just need to trust You.

There is a world,
Where I do belong.
A world that is filled with You.
A world far more beautiful
Than anything I have ever seen before.

And a world that I still may not
Understand,
But an eternal world,
Where You are there.
And I am there.

A world where
You embrace me and
Where You hide me,
Under the shadow of Your wings.

A world where
You are there.
And that is enough.
More than enough.

So Close I Can Almost Feel It!!!

Jambo! 

So, I'm sitting here sipping on a Caramel Latte, in the library "studying". Although I haven't even started copying/looking through notes for my test tomorrow! :-/

But, I am so excited for this weekend it is not even funny. Our Fall Break is this weekend. (Not much of a break, only one day off. Don't get us UA students started about that! But, it is better than nothing!) Meaning, we don't have to go to class on Friday. So, I get to go home Thursday afternoon after my class is out! I am so excited to spend four days at home! 

What makes this trip even better is this: 

First, it is my mom's birthday and on Halloween! :-) 

She is turning...well, she may not want me to post that, but she is another year older and believe me you wouldn't know even if I told you. I love you, Mom! :-) 

Second, my sister and brother-in-law are coming into town! This is the first time that they have gotten to come visit us and we are very excited. I'm glad that the time has finally come and that it fell on this weekend! 

We are going to have a lot of fun. 

I am so excited! 

Now, I only have to get through my Macroeconomics test and another oral presentation in Swahili and then I am free!! 

What are your exciting plans for this weekend?? 

Have fun wherever you may be and doing whatever you may be doing. 

:-)

Kwaheri!

(A post may be coming soon that will be in all Swahili! I'm loving that class! :-) )

I'm Lost

I'm lost.
I don't know what to do.
I'm lost.
Everything is hard.
I'm lost.

You're there.
You know what to do.
You're there.
You make everything easy.
You're there.

I'm lost.
I can't see anything.
I'm lost.
I don't know what to think.
I'm lost.
I mess everything up.
I'm lost.

You're there.
You see it all.
You're there.
You know it all, even before it happens.
You're there.
You perfect it all.
You're there.

I'm lost.
But You,
You are here.

I'm back...sort of.

Hey!
So long story short.
My computer has decided to crash, be stupid, not work, and restart itself over and over again. So, needless to say,I haven't been able to use it. Which hinders me in school stuff, procrastinating on Facebook, and writing new blogs. However, I have been able to read yall's blogs and stay caught up with you.
Sorry that my blog has been left alone. And that you haven't been able to enjoy anything new. But awhile ago I told y'all how I was getting an iPod Touch. Well I did get one and that has been the handy tool that has allowed me to keep reading yall's blogs.
And now, instead of me waiting around to get to a computer, I will be posting blogs from my iPod Touch. So if there are mistakes, please excuse them. It is a tiny screen. Haha

But I hope that it won't be forever until posts come from me again. There will be posts even if some of them are really short.

:-)

How Can I? I Can't.

"Waiting does not mean sitting and soaking, but faithfully serving until God gives a new direction."

This is a quote that I have on a bright, lime green index card tacked on my bulletin board behind my desk. 

I heard it at church one night from my college minister. 

I do not remember all that we talked about that night, but this obviously stuck with me and I wrote it down.

As a daily reminder.

That whatever next step God has in my life,

should just be a continuation of my life now.

A continuation of me serving him.

Faithfully.

There are always things that I want right now that God decided to either give me or to not.

But, as I wait for those things, I should not just be sitting around.

Because if I just sat around and waited, I may be there for a long time.

God works on His own timing, not mine.

Waiting for a new direction could be only minutes away or years away.

I do not want to waste that time. 

Also, as I continue to learn and grow in Christ, I should not hold that in just for me.

During my waiting time, I should not only soak up everything the Lord is showing me, 

but reach out to others. 

And show them also what the Lord is doing for me. 

In the hope and prayer that they will feel and see Christ as well.

My prayer for awhile now has been that people will not see me.

That they will not see me for who I am on the outside by the clothes that I wear or the car I drive or the material possessions that I have.

But, I pray that people will see Christ. 

That when they look at me they will see something different and wonder what it is.

I pray that they will be drawn to me, not because of me, but because of Christ.

Because He is everything about me. 

Without Him, I would not be who I am. 

My identity is now found in Chirst. 

My old self is dead and gone. 

Lost completely in Christ.

That is what I strive for.

That is what I pray for.

That is what I want others to see.

But, dear friends.

I fail.

There are days that I do not die to myself.

There are days that I do not take up my cross and follow Christ fully.

There are days when my tongue gets the best of me and I say things that I should not.

There are days when I think things I should not.

There are days when I do things I should not. 

There are days where I completely forget who Christ is and

days where I never let Him into my day.

There are days when I am selfish,

conceited,

stupid, 

arrogant, 

controlling,

and 

mean. 

Because I am human. 

And my flesh constantly battles the Spirit inside of me. 

But, dear friends, I do have a weapon. 

I have the weapon that is sharper than anything and that can completely turn your life upside down.

I have Christ.

Christ is in me.

He is so powerful and mighty that sin can not touch Him.

His Spirit is in me.

And because of that, I have the power to overcome sin.

I have the power to strive and be like Christ.

To be sinless.

But friends.

Me declaring this on my blog does not make me a better Christian. 

It does not save me or count as a good work. 

Yes, this is a part of my life and an area where I am declaring to believe and trust in Christ.

But, if I am not doing this in my daily life, 

on my campus and in my classes.

What am I doing?

Who is going to know?

How are they going to know if I do not tell them?

There have been so many days that I have wasted. 

Days that I have thrown away and shoved them back in His face.

All because I did not feel like doing it that day.

I say that I so badly want people to know the Christ that I do.

To have the love of a Father that is greater than gold or anything else in this world.

But, if I just sit there silent.

How are they going to know?

How will they experience this?
How will they know Him?

I am here for a reason.

To proclaim Him to everyone that I meet. 

To extend His kingdom.

To glorify Him.

And if I just sit by and go about my daily life, they will not know.

My day is not about me, but about Him.

The day is His given to me as a gift to glorify and serve Him.

To faithfully serve until God calls me somewhere else.

How can I be silent?

I can't.

I'm Still Here

Hey Everyone! 

I promise that I am still here! 

I have many blog ideas written down in my iTouch and I look at them constantly.

I just have to find some time to write them! 

School is going good. 

Classes are busy 

and

there is all the homework.

But, they are going well.

So, I promise that I'm still here and there are blogs coming soon! 

Please be on the lookout! 

And if I post more than one a day....sorry about that too. 

It's me getting caught up! 

Happy Tuesday!!

:-)

Only One by Mainstay

This is another song that has been speaking to me. I love it when God shows Himself to you in different ways. Lately, He has been drawing me to His word and then to a song that usually goes with His word. He is so amazing. This song is called Only One and it is by the band Mainstay.

They are amazing and have many, many wonderful songs, but for now, here it is. 

Enjoy. 

When I can’t walk, will You carry me?
When I can’t stand, will You take me by the hand
And pick me up right where I am

You are the only One for me
The look in Your eyes is all that I need
This world could offer anything, but they can keep it all
Because You’re the only One for me,
You’re the only One for me

When I feel lost, will You stay with me?
When I can’t go on Your grace it picks me up and makes me strong
I know this is Love
You are the only One for me
The look in Your eyes is all that I need
This world could offer anything, but they can keep it all

If You asked me to give up everything that I have You know I would
I would go to the ends of the earth
Just to show You that You are the only One for me

This world could offer anything, but they can keep it all
Because You're the only One for me
The look in Your eyes is all that I need
This world could offer anything, but they can keep it all
Because You’re the only One for me
You’re the only One for me